Sitting here on a Morning morning drinking my cup of jo, waking up slow. *cue Jack Johnson – Banana Pancakes*. Cue that song always, for real though.
You know when you actually take a minute to breathe and count your blessings and you get all weird like, “okay things are too good, when is my car going to break down?” Or if you have anxiety like me, your mind goes to even weirder shit. Trust. Like house fire shit.
Anyway, I know there are high and low points of life but I don’t necessarily think it changes all as much as we harp on, I think it’s when we decide to focus our energy on the good is when we feel the most blessed. So from here on out I am going to try my friggin hardest to count my blessings. Keyword there is try.
So today I am grateful for so many things. For my mom who has acted as both mom and dad to my brother and I, the woman who brings me back down to earth when I am taking life too seriously. My friends who (now I know I can be biased here) are the best in the world. Every single one of them. They make all stages of life the absolute best no matter how difficult I make them for myself at times. They accept me for who I am.
Be grateful for your flaws too! They make you who you are for Christ sake! If you have a temper like mine and tend to fly off the handle saying things you don’t mean, work on it but don’t beat yourself up about it for weeks. Forgive yourself. You are your own worst enemy when it comes to judgement and critique.
STOP + BE PRESENT. How can you truly enjoy the moment when you are busy snap chatting it? I am so, so guilty of this being the oily insta freak I am BUT I am trying. I recently deleted my snapchat (I mean my snap name was sexc33 but that’s besides the point). When Jerry is acting like a clown or Joe is humping my favorite pillow and I go to reach for my phone, lately I put it back down and continue to laugh. Life is too short. Bask in it.
Are there aspects of my life I wish were different? Oh god yeah. But what would life be without the ups and downs. Are my student loans strangling me? Totally. Do I wish my patience wasn’t so small you need coke bottle specs to find it? Um, yes. I miss old relationships I used to have but that doesn’t take away from the ones I have now that I cherish so, so much.
Life isn’t perfect but I truly believe we are given what we can handle and I like to think God gave me my difficult situations because he knows I’m a tough cookie. Thanks, God. I am so grateful.
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This speeks so much to me. Anxiety can be a bitch sometimes…. I totally get you
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