I was just telling a few of my friends who are hesitant to get pregnant with number 2 because being pregnant with number 1 was so effing overwhelming.
Let me explain how I feel.
So pregnancy with JJ (number 1) was tough for me. I went from partying and socializing and trips and friends all day every day to a complete 180 life change. I was sick af in the beginning which made me a tad depressed. It was a life change I was not ready for. I was excited to be pregnant but I also had no idea what I was in for so it was a wild ride. The unknown will get ya!
I am enjoying this pregnancy SO MUCH MORE than pregnancy number one.
With JJ my life completely changed, with this pregnancy I am already in mom mode. Jerry and I already hit the sheets at 10, we don’t stay out late on weekends anymore, like we are already in parent mode. No shell shock with this pregnancy. We actually are getting along better because we know what to expect (mood swings wise) and how to navigate certain situations.
Pregnant with JJ I had no clue what I was waiting for. I knew I was having a baby but I had no idea how much I would love this human so it was kind of underwhelming. I was like okay this long waiting game is boring and like why did I do this? I was excited to give birth simply to be done with pregnancy, I wasn’t exactly excited to meet this babe. This time I am like okay I am ready to meet youuuuuuuu!!!!! I am SO excited to meet this little human being.
I was overwhelmed with joy when JJ was born, not sure if it was an instant connect, my post partum anxiety was little much. It wasn’t chart topping anxiety but it was enough to not thoroughly enjoy newborn life. In fact, I hated it. I’m not sure if that is because I was too anxious to enjoy it? Probably. I have a good feeling that this go around I will be way more present and relaxed, taking in all newborn snuggles I can.
That is my take on pregnancy number two. I have about a month and half left and I cannot believe I have room in my heart to love another human but I trust that I will.